Last week I started walking/jogging again after putting it down for awhile. I had set a fitness goal for myself last year which I reached twice but I had wanted to be able to do it with ease. Yesterday was my fourth or fifth day back in two weeks. I struggled with my weight during my pregnancy with my son and afterwards. I was obese. Just as I would start to get myself back together again something would knock me down. Sometimes my own fault, sometimes not. I had really bad knee problems in my teens and twenties and gave up on my dream of competing in a triathlon. So, you won’t see me trying to compete in any Ironman. But, I set a goal to jog without stopping an extremely modest distance and it was really difficult for me. So, I have to trick myself to get myself running sometimes. I’ll say, “ok today I’ll walk the shades and run the sunny parts.” You know you set little goals like that along the way.
Now, not sure if you’ve experienced this but people at the track are competitive. Some people working out just walk fast or run fast past you because there is a pocket of space that just feels more comfortable to be in. I was never in track and field so this was all new to me back when I started.
But some people actually gun for you. Which is understandable it’s human but it’s still kind of weird. It’s like when you drive and someone speeds up or slows down just to mess with you. I admit that on off days I speed up or slow down to get past people but it’s usually not because I’m trying to compete with them. But sometimes you feel things from people like vibes or something and it gets your goat. You try not to let it but it still does. Or the color of someone's hair bow reminds you of breast cancer or someone who dumped you which makes you angry so you run a little harder. Which is why I try not to wear anything with words on it when I’m working out. It just seems kind of unfair to insert yourself into someone’s mind like that when they are just trying to do something healthy. I listen to music when I’m out there and when I can still hear distinct words of people’s conversations that’s pretty loud. So I’ll adjust my pace to get by those folks.
Yesterday I parked in a different spot than I normally do so at the end of my jog/walk I’d have an extra uphill to conquer to help build my strength up. And in about the middle of my walk just as I was about to start to run a length instead of a short a woman in blue pants pushed (by pushed I mean accelerated) ahead of me which caused a mental battle with myself about how now she’s going to think I’m trying to race her etc. She’s talking on her phone and I could be very wrong but it sounded like she kind of hissed something like “now you did it, so and so warned you.” That sounds crazy right? She probably didn’t say that. But at any rate the fact that I could hear her was enough for me to shrug off the worry that I was going to bum her flow in some way and I started my run but I went too fast and couldn’t complete the distance I wanted to at a jog. But, I made it to the last hill and decided to jog up it. I had to walk a little and when I glanced back to see if there were any cars coming I saw a guy wearing blue starting up the hill and I knew by his pace that he was going to beat me and I really really didn’t want him to. I guess that’s competitive. He passed me just at the top of the hill and gave me a thumbs up. It felt sort of like someone giving me the peace sign.
So today, I’m bringing my son to Boy Scouts. I get to where I think we’re supposed to be only to be told the meeting has been moved. What? I didn’t get the notice? And it turns out it’s at the track at the high school and he’s supposed to run a mile without any notice given at all with an injured heel. This is at the track where he hates to go now because of a bad first experience/ introduction to track and field. So we turn around and we leave. He had a ton of homework and a test the following day. And as we’re walking up the hill this young man in a blue shirt jogs past us. I couldn’t help thinking it was some weird pay back. For what? Loosing?